Sadness persists in me.
Like it is an uncharted organ.
Bicycling does much to diminish it.
Photo albums tend to intensify it.
Blueberries on my morning yogurt
signify I have a taste for blueberries.
There are days sadness
pulls me deeper inside myself.
Other days it pushes me
outside my skin.
Drinking shrinks it briefly
then expands it to galactic dimensions.
As sad experiences add up
I do my best to relabel them neutrally.
There is something about driving long distances
that vibrates sadness out of my pores
to steadily drip on the pavement
of the interstate highways I traverse.
I once tried the nomad lifestyle
because of this fact
but ran out of novel roads to drive
at Neah Bay with a view of Waadah Island.
I threw nine amens and hale-Mary’d
my St. Christopher medallion into the ocean
where the Strait of Juan de Fuca meets the sea
trusting that would pacify my sadness.
It did not. My sadness suggested
we head back to Albuquerque
and the surrounding desert
since the green chile harvest started that week.
copyright © 2021 Kenneth P. Gurney