Sadness persists in me.
Like it is an uncharted organ.
Bicycling does much to diminish it.
Photo albums tend to intensify it.
Blueberries on my morning yogurt
signify I have a taste for blueberries.
There are days sadness
pulls me deeper inside myself.
Other days it pushes me
outside my skin.
Drinking shrinks it briefly
then expands it to galactic dimensions.
As sad experiences add up
I do my best to relabel them neutrally.
There is something about driving long distances
that vibrates sadness out of my pores
to steadily drip on the pavement
of the interstate highways I traverse.
I once tried the nomad lifestyle
because of this fact
but ran out of novel roads to drive
at Neah Bay with a view of Waadah Island.
I threw nine amens and hale-Mary’d
my St. Christopher medallion into the ocean
where the Strait of Juan de Fuca meets the sea
trusting that would pacify my sadness.
It did not. My sadness suggested
we head back to Albuquerque
and the surrounding desert
since the green chile harvest started that week.
copyright © 2021 Kenneth P. Gurney
Twenty-seven years gone
but my dog is young again
riding shotgun in the car
with her nose pressed
to the crack in the window.
Speed generated wind
brings her a thousand stories
as the great plains
rise gently toward the Rockies
and the forest trails we once walked.
For old times sake
I pull off the highway
for a quarter pounder
and buy her a cheeseburger
that she’ll consume in one bite.
Eventually I park the car
at a trailhead on the Spanish Peaks.
Even her golden ghost refuses
to jump out the open door and walk
the trail up to where the thunder gods hangout.
copyright © 2020 Kenneth P. Gurney
My driver’s name is my name.
Chauffeur and passenger simultaneously.
Sometimes while in conversation with myself,
I become misplaced on a highway
that is not my destination’s highway.
Somedays, the highways know best
where I am truly headed.
On those somedays, I ask myself
Where are we headed?
I never know, but I trust the highway
like it is a black asphalt angel.
In the upper midwest, it is a grey concrete angel.
In the desert southwest, it can be a red clay angel.
In April, the highway took me
all the way to Appomattox, Virginia.
I guess I needed a beginning to an end.
Reasonable terms for the cessation of hostilities.
The highway just informed me
it is time for me to end my divided war.
copyright © 2019 Kenneth P. Gurney